Well... it has been quite a while since I have shared on my blog. I think it's time for a new, wee entry. YAY! I have missed you, bloggie.
I logged on here because I wanted to post a beautiful, touching poem that was forwarded to me yesterday by an amazing soul friend I have named Shane. Of course, this poem came at the perfect time, and contains within it many lessons for me that are astoundingly appropriate for the things I am learning right now. My angels told me to pay close attentions to signs and divine guidance, and I thank Mr. Shane for listening to his intuition and sending this to me... he is a wonderful spirit messenger!
We often think that the only relationships worth having are the easy ones, the ones in which it's always easy for us to love the person, easy to communicate, easy to connect, easy to understand. We only want people in our lives with whom we feel good, valued, and who make us feel as special as we know we are. I know that I once had this perception. What I have been learning lately is that many of the challenges we find in our relationships; the issues we recognize in other people - are our lessons. Every relationship has a purpose, and in the face of such challenges we have the choice of either finding and healing a part of ourselves, or ignoring and losing a part of ourselves. What I mean by this is, every little thing that is hard for us to deal with in others is almost always something within ourselves that we are unable to love and accept unconditionally, and when we hit a wound like this, it often feels impossible to love any more. When we find this in a relationship, we are given the opportunity to find that part of ourselves, cradle it in our gentle hands, tell it we love and accept it, and, if necessary, release it to our divine healing light.
I do not mean that we must take responsibility for everything that other people do that may be hurtful or misguided, but that we DO need to take responsibility for our own feelings in response to it. I hope this is making sense! hehe.
So, why all this, what's going on with me? Well, I have begun to really appreciate how blessed I am to have the most beautiful, amazing man in my life who has loved me right from the start, through and through, and continues to love me unconditionally even though we are no longer "together" in the traditional sense of the word. I don't know how and when our relationship will change form, what it is becoming, what any of this means, but I am following my heart, knowing that it is guided by a force that keeps the planets aligned. Surely it can lead this little heart-moon-beam to the people who will grow most beautifully with her blessings, and from whose blessings she will also grow. Surely, there is a divine plan for her that is so much grander than anything her human mind could conjure. Surely, God would not tell her that she has this beautiful, wonderful purpose without taking care of the "how". I trust in my heart, I trust in the abundance of the universe, and I trust in the knowingness and lovingness of All-That-Is.
For the most wonderful man I know, who proves to me every day that it is possible to be made completely of light and love, this poem:::
If you want to change the world… love a woman-really love her.
Find the one who calls to your soul, who doesn’t make sense.
Throw away your check list and put your ear to her heart and listen.
Hear the names, the prayers, the songs of every living thing-
every winged one, every furry and scaled one,
every underground and underwater one, every green and flowering one,
every not yet born and dying one…
Hear their melancholy praises back to the One who gave them life.
If you haven’t heard your own name yet, you haven’t listened long enough.
If your eyes aren’t filled with tears, if you aren’t bowing at her feet,
you haven’t ever grieved having almost lost her.
If you want to change the world… love a woman-one woman
beyond yourself, beyond desire and reason,
beyond your male preferences for youth, beauty and variety
and all your superficial concepts of freedom.
We have given ourselves so many choices
we have forgotten that true liberation
comes from standing in the middle of the soul’s fire
and burning through our resistance to Love.
There is only one Goddess.
Look into Her eyes and see-really see
if she is the one to bring the axe to your head.
If not, walk away. Right now.
Don’t waste time “trying.”
Know that your decision has nothing to do with her
because ultimately it’s not with who,
but when we choose to surrender.
If you want to change the world… love a woman.
Love her for life-beyond your fear of death,
beyond your fear of being manipulated
by the Mother inside your head.
Don’t tell her you’re willing to die for her.
Say you’re willing to LIVE with her,
plant trees with her and watch them grow.
Be her hero by telling her how beautiful she is in her vulnerable majesty,
by helping her to remember every day that she IS Goddess
through your adoration and devotion.
If you want to change the world… love a woman
in all her faces, through all her seasons
and she will heal you of your schizophrenia-
your double-mindedness and half-heartedness
which keeps your Spirit and body separate-
which keeps you alone and always looking outside your Self
for something to make your life worth living.
There will always be another woman.
Soon the new shiny one will become the old dull one
and you’ll grow restless again, trading in women like cars,
trading in the Goddess for the latest object of your desire.
Man doesn’t need any more choices.
What man needs is Woman, the Way of the Feminine,
of Patience and Compassion, non-seeking, non-doing,
of breathing in one place and sinking deep intertwining roots
strong enough to hold the Earth together
while she shakes off the cement and steel from her skin.
If you want to change the world… love a woman, just one woman .
Love and protect her as if she is the last holy vessel.
Love her through her fear of abandonment
which she has been holding for all of humanity.
No, the wound is not hers to heal alone.
No, she is not weak in her codependence.
If you want to change the world… love a woman
all the way through
until she believes you,
until her instincts, her visions, her voice, her art, her passion,
her wildness have returned to her-
until she is a force of love more powerful
than all the political media demons who seek to devalue and destroy her.
If you want to change the world,
lay down your causes, your guns and protest signs.
Lay down your inner war, your righteous anger
and love a woman…
beyond all of your striving for greatness,
beyond your tenacious quest for enlightenment.
The holy grail stands before you
if you would only take her in your arms
and let go of searching for something beyond this intimacy.
What if peace is a dream which can only be re-membered
through the heart of Woman?
What if a man’s love for Woman, the Way of the Feminine
is the key to opening Her heart?
If you want to change the world…love a woman
to the depths of your shadow,
to the highest reaches of your Being,
back to the Garden where you first met her,
to the gateway of the rainbow realm
where you walk through together as Light as One,
to the point of no return,
to the ends and the beginning of a new Earth.
*Love & Light* ~ Angel Blessings ~